..its been over a month since this blog was created for the purpose of sharing random thoughts, and finally i have decided to post something. What kept me away from writing for a while?..well, the first time i wrote something , the day this blog was created, the damn thing didn't get posted.. see the first time one writes something for something particular, one attaches special attention, and effort. so the disappointment was also particularly bad when i discovered that the thing didn't exist at all after all that trouble. Anyway i have recovered from the pain and humiliation and am ready to write again. .. before i pick a particular theme.. i'd like to rewrite certain things that i did one the first day..i remember thanking Anky for introducing me to blog-dom. and once again i pay my tribute to the most and consistently dedicated net freak i know. It would be worth mentioning that i have never been quite comfortable sharing what i write esp. random thoughts with people.. and here i am posting it on world wide web.. quite something really! um.. besides anky, the other reason i wanted to have somewhere to write apart from my journal was the obscurity and anonymity that comes with the net. i am afraid i'd have critical evaluations of what i put down but knowing its an obscure form of combat, makes me rather comfortable. why you ask?.. well my life at the moment revolves around tutorials..(those who know me know exactly the state of affairs). anyway, tutorials are subject to much critical examination by those in authority to do so and by peers as well.. the combat it results in leaves me uncomfortable and unsettled.. it's terribly painful actually. i'm hoping the blog will be this brave venture where i can write without the accompanying stress of tutorials. that reminds me i got to get back to my readings for the next one i have to write..it's way past the deadline and i reckon i will be in trouble. i will keep the blog updated with my regular anxieties.. i promise.